this was bugging me since forever, but i've realized today that my lecturer speaks uncannily like professor snape, fyi.

goodnight bad morning

i realise i have no blogging style. sometimes it's cryptic, sometimes it's just a blatant record of what i've done. i don't know why i've come back, maybe because i'm bored and it's almost end of term. cambridge christmas week always makes me smile, no matter what. it also makes me less productive as i dream of christmas fun.

just came back from a stroll about town. i had to get wine for thursday singapore/malaysia jesus formal and friday medics/vet pembroke formal, plus a box of fancy chocolates for chocolate and liquor evening at johns tomorrow. it felt nice just walking with music in my ears, watching the world go by. christmas lights were out and there are angels in grand arcade. everything seems ready, everyone seems friendly.

good moods have to be treasured, and so do quirky facts.

quirky fact #1: "your brain coagulates at the same rate as egg white" - as quoted by prof rothwell in basal ganglia lectures.

quirky fact #2: the second most screwed up moment in one of ken smith's clinical hospitals is when he mis-filled someone's death certificate. he caused a backlog of cremations when he was summoned to check on the corpse in the coffin! and you wonder what the first can be - it was how a patient died during a 3 hour lumbar puncture and the doctors did not realise until they turned him around. this and other morbid tidbits about dead babies were flying about in pfp review last night, with us cracking up at ken smith's every anecdote. it really makes me wonder how cynical a doctor we'll all turn out to be at this rate.

ok ta, time to figure out how to make a microwave baked pasta dinner yum x

where there's gold, there's a gold-digger.
why is everyone so competitive?

sometimes you realise that you only blog when nothing's going right and you don't know why.

home sweet home

it's going to be a fun-filled 2 weeks. actually no, more relaxing then fun-filled, but who's complaining? especially after the craziness of last week...

we now have 2 rabbits! there's going to be a GPS in the car. apparantly orchard road is quite different now. ohmy, how singapore has changed.

pictures from last week soon hopefully. once i've sorted them out first. xx

mmmbop

i'm just loving this post-exam life!

since coming back from amsterdam, we've been:
- lazing on the lawn singing songs (and writing one even)
- going for garden parties
- bouncing in bouncy castles
- dinnering with finalists before we never get to see them again :(
- partying (dj sammy played fez last night woo)
- going for bops
- watching boat-burning (pembroke kept the headship of the river during bumps!)
- barbecueing
- floorballing and tennising (finally!)
- EATING

may week officially starts today.
there are so many things to still look forward to this week:
clare may ball tonight, john's may ball tomorrow, pembroke june event on wed.
sherry is coming tonight!!
punting soon. i better start planning what she can do in cambridge..

this is the life :)

there's time

set out on a little trip to a place i've never been before
looking for all the things in my life that i've been missing
didn't think it would turn out wrong as i lay there on the floor
couldn't see what's beyond the map stuck on the wall

i was on a pirate ship when i opened my eyes
and the man in front of me, well he was so sure inside
wedding ring on your finger, it's still there you'll see
pick and number and count back in your head to me

try to see the things in your mind
pry apart your fears, i'm blind
don't you dare say it out loud, it might mean something to me
it's ok, i'm alright, you'll find, there's time

as we laugh with the joke, as we cry into the well
brush my teeth, the taste of revelation
and the faces in the mirror hitting back at me
colours swirl inside my head, i wish you could see

kicking on the door, it all seemed so dumb
waching as the clock ticks by, it's now

check out the song we wrote, inspired by amsterdam.
t'was an amazing trip all round, in all sense of the word.

the taste of pimms = summer is in the air!

vodrev and an asian cindies night? it promises to be one hell of a night.

stay tuned. x

the end of some, but the start of something better

the rest of the pembroke crew finished today.

so we nice people conquered sainsbury's (not marks and sparks because we don't want to be old fogeys) and got the 4 of them (and ourselves) some champagne!! almost didn't make it on time to the path lab all because of that crappy old lady at the till who didn't accept my singaporean driving license. but dave and rich saved the day when they went to another till to buy them champagne and proceeded to conveniently leave out the plastic cups. which meant that we had to head back into the JP to steal some cups off derek...

and so we were running to the path lab, with lorna desperately trying to teach me how to open the bottle of champagne and trying not to get run down by oncoming vehicles at the same time. it was possibly due to all the moving from the running, or that i unscrewed too much of the cap, but that frigging thing i was holding popped too early right into rich's arse. he was dripping wet it was so funny.

pembroke medics live up to our name. we take things easy. when the rest of the medics from other colleges started streaming out of the labs, they looked positively upset, slumped shoulders and all. after a bit, hannah walked out with the biggest grin on her face, shouting it's over forever! then the champagne pouring started. and so did the rest of my fantastic day. :)

s'marvellous, s'wonderful

i am at a loss of what to do now.
i can't believe it's all overr! wooooooooooooooo :)

finally. no more pressure, no more constant revision.
ahh life is good!

19 hours, 2 minutes more..

comprising
1 more sleep cycle
1 more non-breakfast
1 more crappy sandwich lunch
1 more nervous wait

and then it will be all over. . . .

AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.

there's beauty in the breakdown..

it's funny how i started blogging again during my exams .

ok i forgot the point of the post already - got distracted by:
1. new dresses on asos.com
2. blog surfing
3. chatting to people i've not spoken to in agesssss
4. hunger
5. crossing out 2 more papers on my exam slip and finally TURNING TO PAGE 2.

but i vaguely recall wanted to say that I HAVE JUST WRITTEN THE LAST ESSAY OF YEAR 2 MEDICINE! alrightt.

dinner time and one tree hill.. i deserve this break.

true or false it may be//

just don't let me down

the killer paper is gone. finished. a thing of the past.
and oh how happy that makes me right now :)
happy enough to comtemplate taking a self-imposed break and watching some online tv.

ok no. self-discipline reigns.

to all the concerned people out there, i am proud to report that i'm still alive and kicking. the bruises that this captive of an examination accumulates increases by the day, no thanks to the insane amount of coffee i'm drinking every day. i wonder if i'll be so dependent by the time this exam ends to have withdrawal symptoms.

only a few days left till...

and here it comes..

THE WEEK OF HELL.

the one week where all i will be doing is staring at pieces of paper, attempting to internalize bits of random information that made no sense to me whatsoever at the beginning of the year. then, i was amazed at the amount of info they expected us to understand and retain for the exams. now, i feel exactly the same way, except with additional silent curses that go along with the initial amazement.

i have completed 3 papers. out of 13.
one more paper and the number of papers left will be down to one digit.
hooray.
tmr i go crazy and will do 3 papers in one day.
then i'll have 7 left.

the biggest joke of it all is that some people only have 4 papers to sit for. and they complain.

songs to love and die by

"have you ever wondered what marks our time here
if one life can make an impact in the world
or if the choices that we make matter
i believe they do
and that one man can change many lives
for better or worse"

do you take the non-believer
cos i'm a non-believer
and i'm not the only one

hello moscow!!

on another note:
THANK YOU LILIAN!
i adore it! it now has a season spot on my table :)

i can't believe i've watched the entire season 4 of project runway!
self-imposed hiatus from work is now over.
back to antihypertensive agents. gosh i'm slow...

I LOVE YOU ALL!

that is absolutely the best birthday surprise in my entire life!

the video was so touching i cried.
i'm so glad you all are here to spend it with me. i'm just so thankful to have friends like you all. sometimes i wonder how i get so lucky. cambridge would be so different without each and every one of you.

AND thank you too! everyone back home!! the video from one of the saturday night gatherings (starring uncle 2's tummy) was the best :) thanks mum, dad, pers, k2, t2, k4, t4, amanda, mei, di, dan, aunty minda! i love you all.
and my dear friends from home... you guys were there for me since the beginning! i can't thank you guys enough. it's been an amazing, crazy 21 years and it's all the more special cos you guys are here to spend it with me. looking forward to the rest of our lives together... the videos were amazing, made me think of you guys a lot. i miss everyone so.. can't wait to go home and have a proper celebration!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!
especially you nic. i can't believe how much effort you put into coordinating everything, from a whole MONTH back. my god you rock! all the secrets painfully kept, all the times white lies you have to make up, all the massive messenging sprees, i don't know how you did it, but you managed to get everyone that was important in my life in that 23 minute video - no matter where they were geographically or whether you knew them at all. i've already thanked you a zillion times and you know how much i love you. <3 to more good years ahead love! :)

take notice, take interest, take me with you

thoughts that go through my head when i sit in the library for hours, hours that can be better spent basking in the sun (yes it's getting warmer. finally!) - in chronological order:

1. amsterdam! we are officially going! wooo
2. what to have for lunch
3. what time should i go for lunch?
4. glucocorticoid agonist = prednisolone
5. what to pack for AMSTERDAM!
6. glucocorticoid antagonist = mife-something...mife-what?!... MIFEPRISTONE - how my notes mock me
7. die! how am i going to remember all these drugs?!?!
8. i need to plan my birthday party
9. i also need to start planning for japan! :) oh yeaaaa.
10. oestrogen agonist = ethinyloestradiol! SCORE!
11. who do i invite on friday??
12. i am getting hungry
13. maybe we should cook fried rice for dinner tonight.
14. oestrogen antagonist = ..... CRAP.
15. it's time for toilet break.

and so it goes...

on a lighter note, today i've heard from so many people back home it made me miss home quite a bit. perhaps that's why i'm still up writing up massive replies. summer's going to be so fun! error - POST EXAMS are going to be so fun! i can't wait.

but for now it's bed time. must hit the library bright and early to get my favourite table - the whole world is back. don't quite know if it's a good thing or not at this stage.

night world. x

when you come undone

i hate work. fullstop.

houses made for one

thank god the internet is back! the "one-hour job" as proclaimed by the either very optimistic or just plain stupid pembroke IT department turned out to be a 5-day mess. every night for the past 5 days i've been sitting in my room wondering how to entertain myself - i only have that many movies. watched wicker park the other day. if only josh hartnett would stand up straight and not slouch, he would look so much better. reminds me of his pearl harbour days, when i was first mesmorized by his shyness.

everyday i wake up and force myself into the same routine.
sometimes i feel thankful there's the framework
other times i bemoan the monotony
the days seem so blurred
i can't keep track
my existence hinges on each chime of the clock -
there isn't any sound otherwise

yet, i don't want term to start. once it starts, it will break our routine. and stress is not condusive for trying out a new routine. new lectures = more material to cover. people will be coming back to break up the peaceful working air around pembroke these days - they already are. the library felt so crowded today with so many familiar people working, staring, watching, mocking.

i am in such a crap mood.

blue is the colour, football is the game

let me clarify.
i do not on normal occasions feel like that, but judging from past statistics, my football colours have slowly been turning purple. (good on ye if you got that - you know me well.)

look at how desperately the real chelsea fan is hiding behind his team's colours. talk about allegiance..

i now (proudly) own a chelsea flag. it's sitting (prominently) in my room.

it was such a scrappy first half. sluggish at the start of the second but it started going when both teams realised they needed some sort of drive to get that decisive goal. injury scare galore for chelsea - we even poked fun at cudicini unknowingly and got death-glared at by the person sitting beside us.

and now it's back to work. :(
the only thing keeping me going is probably my next trip down in 2 weeks' time.
on a side note, clinicals in london would be such fun, but also such crazy expenses. well, we'll get to that when we do.

tomorrow i go down to london to watch chelsea. again.

based on the number of live matches watched, i'm more of a chelsea fan than a man utd fan. to date, it's 3 blues to 2 reds, one of which is a chelsea v man utd match last year, which turned out to be a lame match because it was after the title has been won. what a bummer. all i saw was dongfangzhuo. gosh.

but it's hello didier and co. again at stamford bridge tmr evening.

don't get me wrong, i'm far from complaining! a live football match is A LIVE FOOTBALL MATCH! totally different from watching on tv. all the adrenaline, all the singing, all the passion. the different angle u get to watch the match from. it's a whole new experience. plus tmr's match will be an amazing one given the aggregate from the first leg! i can't wait. it was merely an objective observation..

however come end april, it's HELLO RONALDO for real! :)

in a potential title-decider of a match too!
these next few weeks will definitely be a nail-biting wait.

THANK YOU MENG!!

breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep

the weather today was miserable. it was cold, but not cold enough to snow (although meng claimed it did). so basically it snowed everywhere today, except here. it's like a trend, i seem to be avoiding the snow this year. where is my snowball fight?

tmr i move back into foundress. i've grown used to this room though, it's so nice to have an uncluttered space where only the minimal amount of things exist. everything is so neat and tidy. i know exactly where all my stuff are. staying in the the older part of college makes me think ahead to next year when we'll be staying in O. gorgeous split set with a kitchen shared between us, it will be absolutely amazing! my room will be bigger then foundress and i pay less (as we found out yesterday on our stroll around college in an attempt to drag our lunch break). our grand plan to both get a first this year and pull mich up to share our floor seems foolproof, except for the tiny detail of working our asses off from now onwards till the end of exams. well, at least we have some motivation to study..

it's been one week in of work since after america, not counting the side-trip down to london on thurs. i am bored already. so much so that i'm looking forward to the match on tuesday. football and a haircut! and yet another escape away from the stress of spending ages memorising a flowchart and forgetting it the moment you start on something else. wahey, i better start finding good eating places in london for dinner! another good distraction.

night x

"A notable feature of a live show involving Carrabba is that while performing he will stare, almost unsettlingly, into the audience at a particular person. This has come to be known among his fans as "eye sex." Carrabba, in an interview with the Associated Press, said, "You can't help but look at the audience and if you find somebody and they're having that movement listening to a song that gets to you, I'll connect with them and have eye sex with them." "

OMG HOW COOL IS THIS?! NIC AND I ARE GOING CRAZY!!

colour the coast with your smile

it's the most genuine thing
that i've ever seen
i was so lost
but now i believe

yesterday was so awesome i really want to start all over and do it again, even though it meant having only 2 hours of sleep. but it's definitely worth it, no doubts.

highlight of the day has got to be Dashboard Confessional's acoustic concert at st. james' church in picaddilly.

i think i have fallen in love with chris carrabba's music and him as a performer. such raw emotion, so much passion into his songs. normally i don't immediately listen out for the lyrics, but my favourite line of all time is from stolen,

before the gold and glimmer has been replaced
another sun-soaked season fades away

i don't know why but his lyrics always seem to jump out at me. maybe it's because of all the repetition, maybe because it's an acoustic set, and everyone knows i love anything acoustic. but it was an absolutely incredible night! we were so far in front i swear he could have been just singing most of the songs just for me.. :) definite eye contact on so many occasions oh yeah!

i bought a dashboard shirt, lined up with all the other crazy fans for an autograph, a picture and some priceless conversation. i love it that it was an acoustic set; we couldn't have got such a cosy and close experience otherwise. chris was so nice in person but like nic said, he was smaller then he looked onstage. then again, everyone with a guitar looks cool.

apart from the concert, yest was all about the FOOD!

• royal china in the morning for dim sum - heavenly. highly recommended. 5 stars. it has to be the best dim sum in london, on par with all those hongkong restaurants, and that says a lot about the quality of the food. my god, i could actually taste the huge prawns in my ha kao and ha cheung! we left feeling slightly too full but slightly lighter after cashing out on the bill. (which wasn't that expensive for a place of this standard tbh)
  
• gordan's wine bar in the afternoon for some wine and cheese - 4.5 stars. the oldest wine bar in london, with its rustic cellar/dungeon feel. i had to stoop to walk across to our table at the far end of the basement. there were candles everywhere, twas so romantic - the rose and cheese were so good together! i now understand why angmohs can just laze around all day, just sipping wine/drinking tea and chatting.
  
• chinatown's random chinese restaurant for roast pork and duck rice - 4 stars. i've tasted much better duck before but it was good all the same because we were just so hungry after the concert and before we went on to zoobar. ahh how lucky am i to have been born in asia where we get asian cuisine so readily. i couldn't and wouldn't want to live on anything else!

and also a big THANK YOU TO EVERYONE BACK HOME! i've got all my birthday presents and it was so sweet! we were sitting in starbucks opening them all; i felt so so loved :) ahh i wish all of you guys could be here with me on the actual day, and i can't believe i'm actually turning 21! huge expectations to live up to, but i will try my very best don't worry dad and mum!

i guess it's luck but it's the same
hard luck, you've been trying to tame
maybe it's love, but it's like you said
"love is like a role that we play"

chasing the ghost of a good thing
haunting yourself as the real thing
it's getting away from you again
while you're chasing ghosts

picture perfect

some highlights of america through the lens..

new jersey <3

the princeton bunch and chan on the beach

picnicing outside our house.
all those secondary school memories came flooding back.

piggy and i. always so enjoyable company.
these pictures and going to make me sad tonight...

the girls on the trip.
we then bid cape may goodbye as chan, ren and i head forth to conquer boston.

BOSTON
i think i need a sunrise
i'm tired of the sunset
-
i think i'll go to bostonnn
i think i'll start a new lifee
i think i'll start over
no one knows my name

the harvard coop (dad are u reading this? the one and only..)

boston and the many traffic lights. so quaint.
all those generic american tv backdrops.

it was restaurant week in boston. we had top-end food for low-end prices.
hotel @ MIT. delicious seafood.

at the start of the freedom trail - looking slightly worried about our navigation.

finding the christopher columbus waterfront park. which looked like it came out of a postcard. we spent many a minute photowhoring..

the singaporean spread at the dinner party serene hosted on our last day in boston.
reminded me of home so much..

NEW YORK CITY

the subway was confusing, but i liked people-watching across the tracks.

at the museum of modert art where i found THIS!
les demoiselles d'avignon - something close to my heart and my inspiration for that 'O' level art project oh so long ago.

at battery park, where there were the memorials for all the wars america has been involved in.
a spot of reflection.

the MUD VAN! dad note: gourmet coffee in a van! it was fantastic! i had one just for you :)

and who goes to new york without seeing the statue of liberty?
my token shot. she wasn't that fantastic tbh, i'd much rather go visit the guggenheim.

only in brooklyn will you see cool grafitti like this. new york itself is too proper for such artistic talent.

the brooklyn bridge - should have seen it during sunset. apparantly it is amazing.

ooh. the new york stock exchange! all you financial people, eat your hearts out.
gosh, you wouldn't know it's american, would you?

ground zero.
a sombre moment. you can just imagine how it was like 7 years ago.
can't believe time flew by so quickly..

our happy stuffed selves at the best steak house in all of new york.
our not-so-happy wallets hiding away in vain

seriously the best pancakes i have tasted in my LIFE. i would go back to new york just for these.

chinatown, where everyone assumes you speak cantonese. i say it must be the best chinatown in the world. definitely beats london's hands down.

ahh last day dimsum with the girlies.
i miss them so.
: (

i want to go back..

back to bedlam

just got back from america. and i miss it so already.

i left for america expecting a busy schedule with lots of sightseeing, expecting also to come back with a whole load of shopping and spending lots of time with friends in america, all of which i haven't seen in ages.

i came back from america with sub-optimal sightseeing, spending time with friends and friends-of-friends, which was good in a way and not so good in a way. ren was with us the whole of the first week, so that wasn't so bad in terms of catching up but mandy's little double room served as a hostel for the 4 of us plus her roommate. tight squeeze so we moved into the lounge where i found out to my surprise that late-night american tv is very entertaining! the next supermodel, top chef.. but we should have hung out more in nyc. blame bad timing.

three words to describe each city i went to:
princeton - scholarly, cambridge-esque, apartment-style dorms
cape may - relaxing, surreal, pleasantville
boston - COLD, brighter-and-cleaner-version of london, beautiful
new york - perfect-foodie-haunt, shove-and-push, overwhelming

there was quite a bit of individual exploration of the crazy city that is new york, which was very refreshing, no limitations, no waiting around for decisions, just me and my plans. taking in the sights in midtown, trying to find my way around the grid-map of newyork wasn't as easy as i expected. the newyork subway made me miss the tube, horror of horrors. but the craziness of times square, the hustle and bustle in chinatown, the quaint history-laden litarary streets of greenwich village, the no-nonsense seriousness in wall street and at ground zero, the majesticity of the brooklyn bridge and what little i saw of central park made up for the confusing transport system. also, after the epic trip to woodbury commons, i find i shop best alone. and yes, i came back with a whole shopping bag full mostly of clothes, which goes to show just how much of a rugged traveller i am inside.

food-wise (and yes, this deserves a whole paragraph), america ranks as one of the top destinations. the food in cape may was amazing, thanks to all our chefs, impromptu recipes and of course, the internet. there i was, stuffed like a turkey every night, any movement was effortful. it was restaurant week when we were at boston, as if welcoming our arrival. all the top restaurants for less than half the price. serene our host was the most sincere and helpful person i have ever met! she went to extremes to make us feel comforatble, giving up her bed in the process.. makes me ashamed of myself sometimes. the final day dinner party she hosted could very well be the top dinner party i've been to in terms of the amount and variety of food served - all home-cooked too! big singaporean gathering at harvard made me think of home.. all the rendang and satay helped too. i have come to a conclusion that america has wonderful desserts. there was finale in boston and a million good dessert places in nyc. there was also grimaldi's famous pizza under the brooklyn bridge, good enough for any renowned italian chefs, good enough for me. peter luger's steakhouse: steep prices but oh-so worth-it. i don't think i have appreciated steak properly until that dinner. perfect desserts at bottega del vino recommended by the peninsula where we posed at hotel guests. magnolia bakery where cupcakes and sweet things ruled the world, and our stomach's afterward. clinton st. baking house - in my 20 years, this is the first time i have enjoyed a plate of pancake sooo much that i have vowed to learn how to make pancakes as good as those. they were seriously a STACK of pancakes, all fluffy and melt-in-your-mouth delicious. and not to mention all the great chinese restaurants they had in chinatown, which beats the one in london. it's much larger firstly, and so authentic they even have wet markets on the streets! everyone speaks to you firstly in cantonese, then in chinese when they realise you're not from hk, then maybe a splattering of english if you're lame and not a chinese-speaker as well. we ended off with dimsum which was dirt cheap.. i couldn't ask for more.

america was fantastic. i feel so lost now without a plan of where to go and what to eat for each day. it's back to boring cambridge, where there's not much choice either-way. i also found that i've missed the annual snowfall here. : ( what a waste. i wanted a proper snowball fight this year too!

oh boy. tmr marks the day i start my mad dash to the finish line of tripos. i hope it's a mad dash all the way and not just a jog. or else i'm screwed.

counting down

lady liberty awaits ever so patiently. i'm getting increasingly excited, planning all these eating, shopping and sightseeing trips around nyc, to the point where the only useful thing i felt i got out of my dos meeting with zoltan today was the weather forecast in newyork - snow!

i'm attempting to pack for america together with just plain old vacation storage packing. it's not going too well i'm feeling so lazy. i have this amazing playlist on itunes and it's distracting me, not to mention also the facebook aftermath of abacus annual dinner last night.

these next few days are going to be crazy. i will not get any sleep after friday bop. sleepover for all us crazy souls catching insane coach/train timings on sat morning. and then, before i know it i will be in then land of the free! gosh, everythings' moving a bit too fast now.

brighter than sunshine

the weekend was eventful. but i'm not feeling that chatty atm.

sometimes i wonder if i only choose to see the good side of people, whether naively or just unconsciously. it makes me quite uncomfortable seeing people when they're not in the normal light, or when the worst in people shine through. i should learn not to be such an idealist, just because nothing in this world is perfect (cliched or not).

my london escapade was timely, had a chance to break away from the unpleasantness of the previous night and just spend some quality time with the girls. sing night was surprisingly good, so was the london food! i'm so tired from the lack of sleep these few days, not that i'm going to get any break from now onwards. i've had a record number of people i had to put to bed in a week, and the week's only just started. it just goes to say how responsible cambridge people are.

but i'm not letting anything dampen my good mood these days. my boredness has ceased due to the absurd amount of stuff i have to get done this week, stemming largely from the fact that i've done nothing whatsoever the past few days. i get what i deserve..

this one's for you..

happy birthday daddy!

wish i could be there
lots of love from millions of miles away
xxx

who's to blame

today, i realise exactly how untalented i am.

i do not have the courage right now to do humanitarian medicine, no matter how heart-warming it is and how i think it's all for the best cause. the photographs of the utter helplessness of war victims and the innocent kids didn't help matters; it made me feel even guiltier that i wouldn't give up my safety to reach out to help them. such a pampered fool i am.

i do not play the piano/any musical instrument well, and by well i mean great. i define great as playing with such feeling you move the audience, performing without a care in the world, reaching a standard that the perfectionist in you will be proud of. throw in being fantastic in cool dance genres and here you have the ultimate all-rounder. i admire such people, to be able to go the unconventional route and do so well in it too.

i also cannot and will not be able to stand in front of an expectent audience and complete a stand-up comedy act. kudos to the 6 people who actually dared to.


we are compelled to do what we have to.
we are compelled to do what we have been forbidden.

i light my own fires

in the midst of planning the trip of a lifetime (hopefully). it may not be as bad as i thought it would be - i do have more friends then i remember ha.

easter seems to be coming up too quickly. time flies when you have nothing to do. but i don't foresee it passing any faster now. good thing really.

i hate this cyclic workload. the worst part is knowing that the essays are looming but not having a clue what they are, just waiting to be buried under the inevitable sudden enthusiasm from supervisors. ok, i lie. that's not the worst bit, because what's even more infruriating is that london beckons this sunday, as does m night formal (which is shaping up to be an EPIC night) on sat, which just means i have to get these work done literally on the day i get them. to think that last weekend was absolutely work-free, so much so that i had to think long and hard for things to do to occupy myself. obviously, timing doesn't favour me one bit. and that feeling sucks.

lazy hazy crazy days

so much free time set me thinking...

do i really need to be involved in societies/clubs to occupy my time? next year will most probably be a copy of these few days - just for an extended period of time. (i say this now but will look back and regret it for sure) it's definitely been great not having to do anything, basking in the sun and lazying around in the market, but can i keep up with this freedom long-term? seems like a silly question: i've been provided with a luxury in the stress bubble that is cambridge and i'm complaining.

maybe i'm one of those people who seeks to be busy so that i feel wanted.
or being busy keeps me occupied and my mind from wandering.
i'm still in the process of self-discovery...

i had better see the light soon.

wish upon a falling star..

wondering where you are.
do i ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine?

numero uno on my wishlist right now:

if i could, (and i would!) not go to america, i will buy the iPhone immediately.
...
my birthday's coming up, it's the big one too!

big hint.

best picture of the night by far!
junming the PIMP

WHAT A BLAST!

i can safely say that last night was the best night ever for sure! we were at the hotel since 1.30pm setting up, with problems after problems cropping up (hotel's events manager didn't grasp the sheer scale of our ball - he thought it was only a dinner! av was having quite a few hiccups, projector wasn't cooperating, wires weren't long enough, performances were running late, so many nitty gritty things to take care of. ben was frazzled, junming was running around like a madman, balloons were being put up, stickers were being passed around the comm for signatures, people were TRIPPING OVER ALL THE CABLES ffs!)

however, as suiseng put it: at 4.30, everything messy, by 7.30 MAGIC.
everyone was nervous, getting them damn butterflies. i kept imagining things going wrong, and kept having to hound jumping for the order of proceedings throughout the night. but just before we opened the main doors to the ballroom, i stepped back and turned to look at the room - complete with balloons, place cards, personalized pictures, av and lighting all set up and ready - and i felt all psyched up. it was going to be beautiful.

when the first cue came on, and the GOH settled down, i started up ji pa ban, ben starting gyrating and everything then fell into place. zhengwei was on form last night with the av mixer, jumping, although a little tipsy, was spot on with the timings. i watched as performance after performance went on smoothly (maybe not suiseng's hokkien song on my part though cos the fricking video refused to load - but their performance was so good by itself nobody noticed, i hope), my heartbeat returning slowly to normal with every success. salsa, hokkien song, magic show, acapella, duo dance, gayle, nic zeng, meng. tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick ,tick ,tick.

one thing about the ball was that i couldn't really be at the table for most of it, but karaoke made up for everything! when the beer flowed, when kenrick unleashed his epic hurricane, and when jumping swiftly took over ben's title as mambo-KING with those inspired moves. thank god for alex and his videos! everyone was in such a merry state i half-wanted to just leave the laptop for somebody to man (i thought i remembered someone offering to) and join the rest having absolutely the best time ever.

ahh pictures tell all..

the best-dressed table hands down! we were celebrities in our own rights at that very moment. just imagine being on the red carpet with flashlights popping from every angle possible. josh was kept complaining that the feather boa was tickling him it was so funny. ahh i'm soooo glad we put in effort into our costumes. we looked so good and colourful last night!

ooh when the night became absolute mayhem. i forgot most of the harmonising to shan hu hai and it was our duet too! ever since last year we swore to sing this song at the ball, like a remake of last year's. jm was so emo just look at that expression! dead funny.

ahhh i'm well sad that we're giving up our cumsa posts now. I AM SO GOING TO MISS THIS COMM! best committee ever! the ball was the ultimate high - benkoh you are now officially my idol! you all rock my socks i have never regretted joining cumsa because you guys made all the difference! even when we were slogging our asses off for people who may or may not have appreciated us, we slogged with so much fun and jokes it didn't feel like hard work at all. nothing's going to top this ever.

much love,
xxx

halfway through!

this one's for you nic.

and the lovely people who will be here forever. it's not really halfway for us at all, just an excuse to come together and celebrate 1.5 years of fun-filled times.

ahh halfway hall was awesome!