we're distracted by the heart..

and yes it's going to snow again tmr. or so says the BBC weather page. and again on sunday.. yay? or nay? i'm in limbo. i remember last year we were so excited seeing snow fall, where everything was nice and pretty and everyone looked so picturesque framed by the dirty white. it was like pictures taken on a small budget camera, untouched yet so profound.

all my lawyer friends are getting their dream summer internships which will most probably turn out to be their eventual careers. seems so sudden that we're in the middle of our degrees already and the hot topic for everyone around me (sans the medics and the scholarship holders) is how to get a job. the finality of finishing schooling and going out there is pretty scary. but all the same, i'm so happy for them. they've worked hard and they deserve it. when they end up working in london, hopefully i'll be there for clinicals too. those will be fun times ... ..

this is yet another night when i'm sitting in front of the com at 2.27am, after having dozed off at my slumber hours of 11pm - midnight. didn't really do anything draining today too so i have no good excuse to be feeling so tired. on another note, it's a love/hate relationship i have with musically-talented people. love them because they entertain me, and hate them because they are just so fricking good it's depressing. owell i guess i just have to be contented i'm not tone deaf and just e n j o y the music. hah i had this transient urge to join a choir earlier this term. would have been such a blast except i suddenly recalled the need to be able to sight-sing. i almost failed every single piano oral exams because i can't sight-sing. greattt. it's back to singing as loud as i dare in my room before morna/the porters come around haha.

tomorrow will be good. snow and a formal.. what more can i ask for?

night xx

land of the free...

i'm being such a geek. i actually pay attention during supervisions to notice the jokes kojiro makes. like today, he said "when i was in liverpool, there were lots of dysfunctional families on tv. it seems that there's a higher rate of dynsfunctional family units in the north", to which lorna replied with a loud and indignant OI! ok, it isn't technically a joke on all accounts, but kojiro belongs to a different class so we'll give him that. haha

i finally booked my tickets to america amidst lots of hoohaa with the stupid website. the more we used it, the dodgier it gets: random price hikes, stopping over at detroit (which we decided was a city straight out of rap songs), and the incredible journey time for a trip which should supposedly take around 7 hours. somehow, the cheapo in me wasn't really awake. granted we chose the cheapest flights we could find, but that's out of the grand total of 3 websites we checked.
however, the ORDEAL IS OVER! now for the actual itinerary of the trip .....

eating something other than my own cooking is refreshing. i have now learnt/stolen the recipe for steamed egg with minced pork. my new favourite sauce: black bean sauce! yumm

another sun-soaked season fades away...

i had these beautiful pictures to upload, but blogger is being such a pain. maybe i should just move this somewhere. maybe.

the weekend was nice and relaxing. sporty, but relaxing. just how i like it. netball, badminton, netball. funny how my sporting life here just consists of netball and i never used to play it competitively (if you don't consider netball carn). i'm nowhere near good, but it's enjoyable. one more thing, it feels as though i'm actually on top of my work! it's probably because we haven't really have that much work to do as yet, but i'd like to think it's due to my "singaporean organization" as lorna put it.

m night's thriller dance is to die for. i was showing nic the moves outside on tennis court road in the middle of the day and it's safe to say i looked like a total crazed woman picking up some indian bangrah steps. she was laughing nonstop, so i guess i amused her, together with the other handful of pedestrians who looked totally bemused.

dinner last night was good times! i can't wait for summer to come so we can go lepak with mich!

just a glimpse was all i needed

t'was the start of my comparatively sociable week when i decided i couldn't take the hermitness anymore! and so called up friends, went out to watch perspectives (nic's dance show), ate out more. feels so good

perspective was one word: sensational. much better than last year's, plus the fact that i knew some of the people dancing too! nic's hard work throughout the term and the holidays definitely paid off. from all the things she's been saying about how everyone seems to be loving her item AND more importantly, the special mention in Varsity today! whoa, that really upped her mood as well as strengthened my resolve to go watch this show of hers. the dance itself was also very cute. two young girls agreeing, fighting, working it out, then resolving everything. v charming. i likeee :)

(i realise that not all dancers have very nice bodies. but when they do, omg they are gorgeousss!)

on a side note, cumsa ball ents are going to be awesomeee! the performances especially. i (dare i say) initiated a great cross-instrumental collaboration that will definitely bring the house down on ball night. it's all so cryptic now because it should be kept a secret for it to have that necessary ooomph. i can't wait!

just a thought: people are turning 20, and i'm turning 21... gosh, sure does feel different.

can you read my mind

today the lecturer said that "depression is characterized by insomnia or hypersomnia nearly every day, which is gettin up early without any reason". i've been getting up every day at 7am, which is pretty much hypersomnia in cambridge. he went on to mention " fatigue or loss of energy" as another symptom, and i bemoaned my perpetual tiredness all weekend.

but then he continued with "markedly diminished interest of pleasure in all activities most of the day, nearly every day" and i immediately went - i take immense pleasure in EATING every day. - so i'm alright. phew. hahahaa.

seriously, the things i think about during lectures...

i'll take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you

tests are over and i've resorted to blogging again cos i just don't want to start reading neuro. again.

today i was a good healthy girl and went to the gym to EXERCISE. and found out exactly how unfit i am. i was on the stairs-climber thing (cos in pembroke the treadmill is there for show and refuses to work) for 5 minutes and was huffing and puffing like a madwoman. and so i decided to utilize all the machines in the gym one by one. i had the whole gym to myself.. until i almost completed a round and was doing sit-ups on the mat when this old woman came in, at the very moment when i was struggling to finish my upteenth sit-up. embarrassing. m u s t e x e r c i s e m o r e.

start of term has been draggy. i have:
1. way too many lectures to read up for (what's new)
2. way too many supervisions to worry about
3. feeling too much like a hermit
4. cycled up the hill for netball which got cancelled again :(
5. on facebook for too long

g a h.
next week's going to be horrendous. even my itunes seem to know that. it's on random and all the emo songs are playing now. at least someone sympathizes.

daydreams

life moves along, and it trickles down the face of every beautiful boy
time comes along, and it breaks every bone in your spine

and into the flight of night
insomnia strikes, and hopes alight
set ourselves up to fall
as we stargaze and we write down all the things that we'll do
fall into the river, pockets full of stone
full of stone

a sky full of hope

sometimes doing something out of the ordinary wakes people up to what is real. and special.

scenes from home are not always the typical frenzy of orchard road, or the multitude of dishes waiting to be consumed. sometimes, there only needs to be something simple, something peaceful for you to reflect on how crazy the world is now.

cycling through the north of singapore opened many new fascinations for wide open spaces, beautiful blue skies, wind-in-your-hair freedom and green green grass. i never knew how pretty reservoirs are. the still waters, gentle ripples. that blazing sun on your skin. reminded me of softball trainings of oh-so-long ago where we baked under the crazy afternoon heat, turning into our famed golden brown/black as some people will emphasize.


images of yesteryears. attap huts with their zinc roofs and unmowed lawns. the imperfection of wild cow grass and houses on stilts in the foreground of a pristine golf course. i felt a bit nostalgic in the face of such juxtaposition.

i don't know how singapore will change in the coming years, but it is said to be moving forward at an exceeding rate. we can very well be in the top 10 richest countries in 5-10 years but somehow i do not really look forward to the fast-encroaching concrete forest.