wish upon a falling star..

wondering where you are.
do i ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine?

numero uno on my wishlist right now:

if i could, (and i would!) not go to america, i will buy the iPhone immediately.
...
my birthday's coming up, it's the big one too!

big hint.

best picture of the night by far!
junming the PIMP

WHAT A BLAST!

i can safely say that last night was the best night ever for sure! we were at the hotel since 1.30pm setting up, with problems after problems cropping up (hotel's events manager didn't grasp the sheer scale of our ball - he thought it was only a dinner! av was having quite a few hiccups, projector wasn't cooperating, wires weren't long enough, performances were running late, so many nitty gritty things to take care of. ben was frazzled, junming was running around like a madman, balloons were being put up, stickers were being passed around the comm for signatures, people were TRIPPING OVER ALL THE CABLES ffs!)

however, as suiseng put it: at 4.30, everything messy, by 7.30 MAGIC.
everyone was nervous, getting them damn butterflies. i kept imagining things going wrong, and kept having to hound jumping for the order of proceedings throughout the night. but just before we opened the main doors to the ballroom, i stepped back and turned to look at the room - complete with balloons, place cards, personalized pictures, av and lighting all set up and ready - and i felt all psyched up. it was going to be beautiful.

when the first cue came on, and the GOH settled down, i started up ji pa ban, ben starting gyrating and everything then fell into place. zhengwei was on form last night with the av mixer, jumping, although a little tipsy, was spot on with the timings. i watched as performance after performance went on smoothly (maybe not suiseng's hokkien song on my part though cos the fricking video refused to load - but their performance was so good by itself nobody noticed, i hope), my heartbeat returning slowly to normal with every success. salsa, hokkien song, magic show, acapella, duo dance, gayle, nic zeng, meng. tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick ,tick ,tick.

one thing about the ball was that i couldn't really be at the table for most of it, but karaoke made up for everything! when the beer flowed, when kenrick unleashed his epic hurricane, and when jumping swiftly took over ben's title as mambo-KING with those inspired moves. thank god for alex and his videos! everyone was in such a merry state i half-wanted to just leave the laptop for somebody to man (i thought i remembered someone offering to) and join the rest having absolutely the best time ever.

ahh pictures tell all..

the best-dressed table hands down! we were celebrities in our own rights at that very moment. just imagine being on the red carpet with flashlights popping from every angle possible. josh was kept complaining that the feather boa was tickling him it was so funny. ahh i'm soooo glad we put in effort into our costumes. we looked so good and colourful last night!

ooh when the night became absolute mayhem. i forgot most of the harmonising to shan hu hai and it was our duet too! ever since last year we swore to sing this song at the ball, like a remake of last year's. jm was so emo just look at that expression! dead funny.

ahhh i'm well sad that we're giving up our cumsa posts now. I AM SO GOING TO MISS THIS COMM! best committee ever! the ball was the ultimate high - benkoh you are now officially my idol! you all rock my socks i have never regretted joining cumsa because you guys made all the difference! even when we were slogging our asses off for people who may or may not have appreciated us, we slogged with so much fun and jokes it didn't feel like hard work at all. nothing's going to top this ever.

much love,
xxx

halfway through!

this one's for you nic.

and the lovely people who will be here forever. it's not really halfway for us at all, just an excuse to come together and celebrate 1.5 years of fun-filled times.

ahh halfway hall was awesome!

the way we get by

i am so sleepy.

you will not imagine what i spent the last 4.5 hours doing - the most tedious thing ever is to be making ball table numbers for tomorrow. the hard part is to make them seem garish, but also professionally easy on the eyes. in the end, we went for a gold with silver glitery lining lettering on a black background.

my fingers are full of glitter. so is the rest of my room.
my feet are asleep now after being sat on in the same position for so long.
meng that fool used my practical book as a cutting board, and now i have holes in my graphs.

today was one big firefighting and errand-running day. if i had been a young little boy scout, i would have reached my good deeds for the day quota pretty early on in the day doing random tasks for people. not surprisingly, the most enjoyable part of today though has to be the oxbridge netball match - oxford, being the silly arses that they are, didn't send enough players to form a team so we basically had to play against a team of boys, which was oddly entertaining.

ok my eyelids can't cope. goodnight my loves
tomorrow will be a busy day indeed
xxx

ji pa ban

this silly song has been on loop as i try to organise all the music that we'll need for the ball on sunday. IT'S FINALLY COMING it's in sight! i can't wait, although ideally i will want to wait this cold away. blocked nose, sore throat, constant sniffing - i can't help but laugh at the utterly horrible timing i have. this was the one weekend of all the weekeneds this term which i needed to stay healthy and geared up for

1. a whole freeee day today! NO lectures, NO supervisions, NOTHING! and the medics are planning on a granchester pub lunch too..
2. HALFWAY HALL tonight. omg i won't be tasting the confit of duck, whether it's because of my cold or due to the copious amounts of alcohol that is definitely going to be consumed.
3. oxbridge games on saturday - we'll need to be at our best to thrash their sorry oxford asses at netball, which means that there will be morning practice even before the match in the afternoon... all this cold english air won't do my airways any good whatsoever.
4. the whole of sunday will be dedicated to CUMSA BALL 2008. the one mega swansong event that our comm will organise before we retire on a high into our sad little tripos shells. i really can't wait till we're all dressed up in our frilly outfits, ready to roll.

but right now, i just want to get better. soon. the 11 hour sleep seemed to have helped.. but i'm still crossing my fingers.

the end of an era

v day seems so long ago. those feelings of crazy happiness have now but subsided, but not before a very entertaining weekend which followed...

the culmination of 5 weeks (not months!) of blood, sweat and tears literally unfolded on saturday evening: The Malaysian Odyssey. aww i must say i'm so proud of mich and all her actors/dancers/cheorographers. they put up one amazing play; it succeeded in making this chronic plays/musicals-napper sit up and hang onto the characters' every word and action, laughing till i almost cried at certain parts. it doesn't hurt that i knew almost all the people acting in or involved in the play, and it touched me to see how much effort went into the whole thing. I was praying the whole time that it would go without a hitch, and it pretty much did just that, minus the forgetting of lines ("karaoke! karaoke!") and the slip during the dance that went totally unnoticed - nic only told me after the show back in our rooms.

special mention has to go out to:
alex teo, who threw caution to the wind, together with all shreds of respectibility for a single dance item which will be forever more cemented into facebook folklore. ohh i have never laughed so hard in my life!
also: nicole tay and alicia goh, who also threw caution to the wind with those excuses of a dress which barely covered anything. i was crossing my fingers the whole time, but it all turned out fine in the end. the pontianaks even managed to scare a certain malaysian into avoiding dark toilets out of conditioned fear from the dance.
kenrick ng, acting genius. the one most likely to win an oscar for his performance - something to add the the booklet!
voonkiat lai: a singlet-bearing padi boy whose dedication to the role include certain crucial decisions and drastic shaves
and last but not least, the three main actors wuileng heng, even pan and daniel tay aka the cool, the poser and the hamsuplou. roles so defined and apt for each personality that i can't help but worship the queen of all directors, michelle yeo.

so malaysia night came and went with a bang. the next day, i had to wake up to my last official day as CUMSA sports secretary. the agm was boring as expected, but i felt slightly depressed at the end of it when the eager smiles on the faces of the new committee members seemed to mock our quiet stepping-down. watching them convene for their very first cumsa meeting made me reminisent of the past year; it was such a good year i couldn't really ask for anything more to be honest. maybe that's why i was feeling reluctant to hand my post over; it had been just too perfect.

sorry for the emo post. another sun-soaked season has faded away...

locked in time..

it's valentine's day today and i'm feeling nice and warm inside, despite the chilly weather outside. i thought it would be depressing and couple-y all over town today and was dreading the potential lonely walk up to teriakis for dinner, but it all turned out well :) it's the first vday in a long time where i actually felt like it was something special.

i have to say before i go any further, nicole: you're the best friend ever and i mean it. that was one hell of a nice surprise with the barbershop quartet! when they came in, i knew immediately that all that oxytoxin nonsense you were sprouting was a secret ploy to get into my room and film the whole thing! awww u know i'd fall for a serenade and i did! how can anyone not with voices like those? (plus not to mention they were 4 hot guys in black tie singing just for me!) i need to find a way to top this.

yes sir, that's my baby
no sir, i don't mean maybe
yes sir, that's my baby now

everything went perfect today:
valentine's lunch with the girls and dinner with the usual gang minus 2 (both with valid excuses hehe) were really nice with the usual good chat.
i also totally creamed everyone at sup today (thanks to mich dragging me to waterstones to mug and almost forgetting a little something called the surprise acapella dedication at 5pm - i was quite suspicious why nic was texting mich all the time knowing i was with her too) and that is always a morale-booster.
we managed to scout around for costumes for cumsa ball - our table is going to look so so hot; glittery fedoras and feather boas are just a little taster of our outfits...
juno was such a good film, even though it's a bit ironic to watch a show on abortion on vday. the soundtrack was awesome though, quirky yet sacchrine sweet.
it's also always a pleasant surprise when you find out you've underestimated how romantic someone can be. oh phooey not to me obviously but to come up with a vday plan that would melt any girl's heart. awww.
and what doesn't make u smile more than receiving flowers on vday :)

goodnight all
i know i'm going to be smiling in my sleep tonight

xxx

let it go

the damage in your heart
i can't tell you how the words they made me feel

the mnight girls are over again, making their costumes this time. there's so much bad blood behind this production (mainly directed towards a certain someone) i really hope it goes well on saturday, if only for mich's sake. post-mnight celebrations will definitely be something to look forward to! :)

i have finally sorted out karaoke! now i can sing to jaychou in my room to my heart's content.

where bright lights and angels meet

feels so good being altruistic. i guess i'm going into the right profession after all.

i can't explain it; we were possibly moved by all the hard work that the malaysia night crew was putting in day after consecutive day, going for multiple rehearsals each day, especially the 3 main characters. so we decided to cook them dinner on a whim. t'was one of the best dinners this term - chicken was already marinating in the fridge for the past 5 hours, we had just the right number of noodle packets for 5, mushrooms and onions completed the taste, which if i say so myself could be classed as gastronomical heaven. add to the fold pizza, spring rolls and cartons of juice and you have the perfect meal, complete with that good ole fuzzy feeling of doing something nice out of the goodness of your heart. :)

couldn't hurt that the company was fantastic, so much so that out altruism even extended to offering them our sacred b&js!

i feel so happy.

today's another cumsa day. photoshoot for the ball and figuring out karaoke to come.. something to look forward to? bring it on!

-overload

just as i bemoan the dearth of activites in my last post, this barrage of tasks come flying in. i had to see it coming.

within the space of an hour, i had to:

1. decide on clare may ball tickets, taking into account the dynamics of the group and the limbo i was in concerning trinity tickets on the same night
2. discuss easter plans with chan
3. discuss easter plans with mandy
4. confer between the two and decide what i want to do
5. get distracted by a scintillating offer from the usual gang (dang why did u guys have to plan it so late..)
   
6. find out how incredulously quickly clare got sold out (half an hour!)
7. worry about people stealing my laundry
8. find out i have another opportunity of doing osca in hk with tom and matt if i wanted to ie they can pull strings.. hmm
9. help out with cumsa ball photoshoot and check out hotel av equipment with jm
   
10. arrange when to book the music room for meng
11. contend with multitudes of blinking msn convos
    

i don't usually note down such a detailed manuscript of events, but that is what i call multi-tasking. keeps you on your toes.

you don't know me

you don't wear my chains
essential yet appealed
carry all your thoughts
across an open field

i'm in a rather dazed mood. i have achieved absolutely nothing this weekend. also, my reflexes are becoming less sharp. i missed the crux of sweeney todd last night and got very confused about the numbers on the yellow cards when watching chelsea vs liverpool today. thank you meng for bringing this to my attention, or lack thereof apparantly haha. something's amiss. i must just be very SIAN. it seems as though hopes are slipping away each day and things aren't turning out as i dreamed they would be. but then again, that explains why they will remain just dreams and wishful thinking. i have to learn to not think so much.

valentine's day is 4 days away. nic's made a wonderfully sweet present for james (i really hope you're not reading this james). i also wish a certain somebody luck and courage for what he intends to do. ooh the necessity for anonymity here is paramount. i feel like a detective trying to write a code hehe.

i was wearing a home-made padi field hat in the corridor a few minutes ago, courtesy of our corridor being malaysia night HQ for the timebeing, when shreena walked in from badminton and said "i must be dreaming!" she stood staring and laughing for awhile and i felt it best to leave her in her incredulity with mouth agape and all. i love being comic relief!

on a more administrative note, cumsa ball preparation is in full swing. pictures need to be taken, posters need to be done up, cheques need to be sent in, dining preferences need to be finalized, performances need to be rehearsed. mmm my free week suddenly seem to have ended.

don't shrug your shoulders

we got beaten by queens' today. totally could have washed them but i'm quite happy cos i scored all the points this game. good shooting percentage, unlike the previous thrashing we received. i realize how unfit i am compared to angmohs. it's true, even compared to james of all people, i'm so sluggish, and no one (not even nic) could believe how fit he actually is. (maybe i should go running with him as a sort of test of fitness.) and to think i wanted to join the football team! now that would possibly kill me. where have those days where i could just run forever disappeared to?

i have decided agms are the most boring things ever. especially when what u expected turned out to be a much tamer affair. ours is on next week. our second to last hurdle. let's hope it goes well.

ahh i'm such a geek! i somehow managed to mutilate my thumb and all i can think about are clotting cascades and innate inflammation.

wake me up..

when the accusations end. i hate this ambiguity.

but i won't let it spoil my otherwise top-of-the-world mood today, stemming from the fun that was funkyard II last night. like ben said, our bop thrashes theirs hands down man! maybe that's why we were feeling so damn good about ourselves the whole night, checking our watches and comparing the crowd size at regular time intervals to HSM, compounding on our proud belief that we're the best committee. ever. the crowd was literally cumsa-esque; nic and i were the only people who knew how to follow instructions to wear RED. it's chinese new year after all!

you're simply the best, better than all the rest.

we have found our song. oh definitely. :)

good mood was potentiated by firstly, FREE POPCORN along the way to lectures. good timing cos i was absolutely starving. breakfastless mornings and i just don't go hand in hand. secondly, FIRE ALARM at lectures after about approximately 7 minutes meant we had an extra hour of our weekend! i am so happy.

here's a funny quip from prof. stanley: "i hate mobile phones. i can go berserk and invoke physical injury if any phone goes off. please turn them to vibration mode, even if it's just for the cheap thrill".

i was laughing so hard.

reunion dinner!

i just had the most wonderful reunion dinner with nic ben wv ym alex voon ian rui mich. we had TEPANYAKI! i realized today that the most wonderful invention in the world is the tepanyaki grill; it cooks to perfection! but i am blatantly taking away credit from the crazy marinating by the queens' crew - can u imagine getting ready 5 hours prior to cooking? i feel so inadequate. mostly nic and i only remember to add the seasoning as the meat is already on the grill/in the pan, and a hasty scramble for the kikoman/pepper/teriaki sauce follows suit. such blur fools we are..

i'm still feeling contented in my bubble of happiness even as i sit in my quiet room reminiscing. i'm smiling even as my kitchen reeks of garlic and the floor stays slippery despite the bravest of efforts from ben and i. my teeth are chattering because i had to open my windows to let the smell of leftover japanese style noodles topped with a generous serving of chicken and eggs dissipate. even the fact that we got porter-ed seems down right hilarious now!

i love karaoke i love loveletters i love the food i love b&js i love red packets but most of all,

i love my friends!

it wouldn't be the same here without you guys. i sincerely thank you.

xxx

it's back!

my computer's back!! thank god

just felt the urge to do something internet-related, leave my mark where i haven't been able to for so long (hey, 3 days is long enough) !

it's also CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!

to everyone at home:
新年快乐!
万事如意!
i miss you guys & i want to be home...

you do it to yourself

you do really.. i've come to realize how all my backlog of work is down to my own procrastination and faffing around. without the internet connection in my room, it's making me more focussed when i come to the computer room. i can't explain it, but even though there's usually nobody (but this really pretty girl with her black hat and scarf - even indoors!) in the computer room, i still feel as though someone's always watching me, judging me - so i work better. there u go, the cliched silver lining in every situation!

2 formals in the last 2 days. christ's formal on friday was surprisingly good despite all the warnings and danger signs. good company, (can i say) good food, limited wine but i still enjoyed myself all the same. post-formal fun times were most entertaining. i haven't felt so awkward yet have such an urge to laugh in a long time. after all the second-hand description by nic about how kenneith demonstrates the dance moves with one of the guys, it turned out to look exactly like how it plays in my mind's eye! the dance itself was hot stuff, i will never let you live it down nicole! hah. there is only one phrase to describe kenneith: bold like hell. so unrestrained because of his passion, being his own person in every sense of the word, bursting with self-confidence. i quite admire people like that, even though i may not see eye to eye with what they subscribe to. yaoyu's another example, speaking of which.. tuesday will be, um interesting to say the least. it's funny how something i was so looking forward to can become something i'm apprehensive about going to now.

vedics formal yesterday was seriously the best menu pembroke could ever come up with! as jane put it, best line up ever! risotto for starters, salmon baked to perfection, treacle pudding. plus loads of wine! it definitely was an all guns ablazing game of pennying as dave had so kindly warned us in his earlier email. unfortunately (or not) i chose the wrong place to sit at - directly opposite the mastermind himself and before i knew it, after a 'hey jas, remember what i said?', the carnage started. i had a whole bottle of wine to myself, which might explain why i may have agreed to get some cheap boots and go for football practice in the next 2 weeks. best part of formal, given my inherent asian women sweet tooth syndrome, was most undoubtedly the pudding, of which between the 3 of us, we had 5 of. we had to find ways and means to hide servings of puddings under the table and in our gowns in an attempt to confuse the catering staff. i must say i'm quite disappointed in our dining staff. it was too easy. far too easy. king's cellars after became such a weird affair (complete with random spanish lab partners) that jane and i decided to call it a night. fun times...

ffs

i got disconnected from the pembroke network today. totally sucks because it wasn't my fault too. someone sent one of those msn viruses and now my "machine has been exhibiting symptoms of having it's security compromised". so here i am, sitting in the freezing computer room wearing 3 layers and still not feeling my toes, cursing the computer officers who were MIA when they were supposed to be there to provide assistance. gah!

ok, no point in being so upset.. we shall just think happy thoughts... happy thoughts.

IT DID NOT SNOW TODAY! despite all the talk of it.. i am so disappointed. it did not help that the temperature was crazy low and the winds were relentless.. okk happy thoughts c'mon...

this week's the week of formals: 3 since sunday, one more tomorrow - the big vedic's formal yet again, the last of which ended with 2 freshers and 1 second year being brought down, according to some of the third years. such arrogance. revenge will be so sweet!

i am so tired i can't think i need sleep i will go upstairs to thaw now.