hello moscow!!

on another note:
THANK YOU LILIAN!
i adore it! it now has a season spot on my table :)

i can't believe i've watched the entire season 4 of project runway!
self-imposed hiatus from work is now over.
back to antihypertensive agents. gosh i'm slow...

I LOVE YOU ALL!

that is absolutely the best birthday surprise in my entire life!

the video was so touching i cried.
i'm so glad you all are here to spend it with me. i'm just so thankful to have friends like you all. sometimes i wonder how i get so lucky. cambridge would be so different without each and every one of you.

AND thank you too! everyone back home!! the video from one of the saturday night gatherings (starring uncle 2's tummy) was the best :) thanks mum, dad, pers, k2, t2, k4, t4, amanda, mei, di, dan, aunty minda! i love you all.
and my dear friends from home... you guys were there for me since the beginning! i can't thank you guys enough. it's been an amazing, crazy 21 years and it's all the more special cos you guys are here to spend it with me. looking forward to the rest of our lives together... the videos were amazing, made me think of you guys a lot. i miss everyone so.. can't wait to go home and have a proper celebration!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!
especially you nic. i can't believe how much effort you put into coordinating everything, from a whole MONTH back. my god you rock! all the secrets painfully kept, all the times white lies you have to make up, all the massive messenging sprees, i don't know how you did it, but you managed to get everyone that was important in my life in that 23 minute video - no matter where they were geographically or whether you knew them at all. i've already thanked you a zillion times and you know how much i love you. <3 to more good years ahead love! :)

take notice, take interest, take me with you

thoughts that go through my head when i sit in the library for hours, hours that can be better spent basking in the sun (yes it's getting warmer. finally!) - in chronological order:

1. amsterdam! we are officially going! wooo
2. what to have for lunch
3. what time should i go for lunch?
4. glucocorticoid agonist = prednisolone
5. what to pack for AMSTERDAM!
6. glucocorticoid antagonist = mife-something...mife-what?!... MIFEPRISTONE - how my notes mock me
7. die! how am i going to remember all these drugs?!?!
8. i need to plan my birthday party
9. i also need to start planning for japan! :) oh yeaaaa.
10. oestrogen agonist = ethinyloestradiol! SCORE!
11. who do i invite on friday??
12. i am getting hungry
13. maybe we should cook fried rice for dinner tonight.
14. oestrogen antagonist = ..... CRAP.
15. it's time for toilet break.

and so it goes...

on a lighter note, today i've heard from so many people back home it made me miss home quite a bit. perhaps that's why i'm still up writing up massive replies. summer's going to be so fun! error - POST EXAMS are going to be so fun! i can't wait.

but for now it's bed time. must hit the library bright and early to get my favourite table - the whole world is back. don't quite know if it's a good thing or not at this stage.

night world. x

when you come undone

i hate work. fullstop.

houses made for one

thank god the internet is back! the "one-hour job" as proclaimed by the either very optimistic or just plain stupid pembroke IT department turned out to be a 5-day mess. every night for the past 5 days i've been sitting in my room wondering how to entertain myself - i only have that many movies. watched wicker park the other day. if only josh hartnett would stand up straight and not slouch, he would look so much better. reminds me of his pearl harbour days, when i was first mesmorized by his shyness.

everyday i wake up and force myself into the same routine.
sometimes i feel thankful there's the framework
other times i bemoan the monotony
the days seem so blurred
i can't keep track
my existence hinges on each chime of the clock -
there isn't any sound otherwise

yet, i don't want term to start. once it starts, it will break our routine. and stress is not condusive for trying out a new routine. new lectures = more material to cover. people will be coming back to break up the peaceful working air around pembroke these days - they already are. the library felt so crowded today with so many familiar people working, staring, watching, mocking.

i am in such a crap mood.