ymw! is it really true that "how we behave and think at about 21 or 22 years old pretty much remains the same for the rest of our lives" ?? gosh NO! it's scary to think that a 60-year-old woman thinks like a young adult who just set foot into the real world. what ever happened to life experience and moulding of character as you live life etcetc? gosh, if it's true then i'll be in deep shit, (and i think a lot of other people would too :S) 21/22 is too immature an age to be stuck in for the rest of my life!

ahh these few days i've been meeting up with people that i don't usually meet up with. it's nice having the time to catch up and actually find out that you can click with these people. it might be surprising how many similar interests you have or how alike in personality you are. sometimes alone-time with people might even dispel any myths or preconceived notions that you might have about them before. well, i'm glad i'm so free now to hang out with friends. there might not be such freedom soon :( and ymw, i've decided that you have a pretty funky dad! heh hope you didn't have weird nightmares about purple shoes and coloured hats! :) oh and you're right, there is no fight between imperial and cambridge! cost-wise, location-wise, friends-wise. ;)

someone said to me the other day about belonging to certain groups of people: getting invited to join a group outing or doing group activities together etc. well, to me, group activities can be fun (well most of the time they are) because you have this chance to divert your attention from one person to another, and there'll always be commotions and conversations to join in due simply to the mass of people and their thoughts. you'll never be bored in a group that's a fact. (but if u do, then i have to say that's a sad sad group..) but sometimes i prefer to hang out just with one person - it's amazing how much you can understand a person if your attention is focussed on just that one person the entire time. things u never knew about her will surface and vice versa. well, i suppose everyone has their opinion on that. so i shall just stop here.

on a lighter note. it didn't rain yesterday!!! haha i was prepared to brave the cold and went out wearing long pants and three-quart sleeves plus a jacket in my bag, expecting it to rain. but it didn't!! whoaaa. it must be a record or something: first sunny day in the week! so far today has been excellent. sunny yet cooling: perfect for an outing to botanical gardens! (sy! we don't have to change venue already!) going for a 403 outing later! i haven't seen all them poeple for ages! skipped the last dinner with mdm yeo cos i had to prepare for an early flight to hongkong. yay! i love my sec 4 class! :D

alrightt photos! i dun feel like writing lots today:

went back to rj awhile back to crash orienatation 06. and we did a good job posing as gullible little j1s. check out the high belts! it was fun, met up with a whole lot of people there. it was more like a j3 gathering at the council room area than a games station for the j1s! haha. we were making so much noise there i think they wanted to shut us up. anyway, saw sandra too! hope she goes to london too! (and skip one whole week of school!)

yesterday i went over to lil's house to help her clean out her room! and all we managed to do is to clean out one of her DRAWERS! sheesh, well that was all the rubbish we threw away. but quite efficient for an hour's work. i think we just spent one hour cleaning and the rest just lazing around watching tv and stoning! haha the morning show are actually surprisingly nice! i love the home-decor and home makeover shows! debbie travis is one bossy lady; complaining and getting in the way of her otherwise talented crew, but that's what makes the show interesting! haha well her sketches are cool (i shall give her credit where it's due, of course that is after assuming that she did the sketches of the final products!)

went out with bird yest. was supposed to discuss our london shopping trip but all we did was to decide where we wanted to go to shop. soho, oxford street, go and watch a theatre at covent gardens... ooh i can't wait for london!!

ok i have to go cook my pasta now. lunch awaits!

long lost blog!

i have finally found my blog! after 6 whole months! gosh.

after reading the last entry, did it every occur to you that i might never blog again? well, sometimes online confessions really do work. heh. (maybe only in this case) well, since i'm dying from boredom at home nowadays, i think i shall revive my blog. goodie!

well a lot has happened in the past 6 months:

1. i have finally gotten over the dreaded As (now fretting over the results :( )
2. watched tons of movies, even after watching helplessly as the price of a ticket bloated from 7 plus to a 9.50 on weekends! that is something! considering it all happened in the space of a few months! moneysuckers!!!
3. finished official schooling, sad to say.
4. completed all the uni apps. i officially hate essays now.
5. went to hongkong and malaysia in the midst of all the applications
6. received the customary christmas presents
7. took my btt (and passedthank goodness!)
8. watched the new year whiz by with all the festivities and celebrations which are oh so overrated
9. met up with various friends, all darling people whom i've never really had the time to see cos of exams
10. went back to school to crash orientation!! love my little selffars. they're all grown up and enjoying themselves! orientation was hyper. i was really mistooken for a j1, which is a sad thing even though i planned on crashing as one cos then that just means i look immature. hmmm.
11. got my offer letter from CAMBRIDGE!!! goshgoshgosh! 3 softballers! i am so excited i can't wait to go hope my dad will let me go please let me go!!! it'll be so much fun~ ahh just thinking about it makes me happy :)
12. saw off the guys to bmt. it's bye world, hello botakhood! for them
13. just saw mau before he went back in to tekong. poor guy has trouble lifting up his arms! since when was physical over-exertion allowed? seriously, why do they go to all the trouble to torture those poor little recruits! ahh i really hope they're all doing fine in there.

there, a brief summary of my past 6 months!

sigh nowadays i'm just rotting and wasting my time away at home, moping around and feeling utterly bored. i can't find work cos no employer in the right frame of mind will employ a worker for 2 weeks and give her a 3 week break after that. so much for better working conditions! haha. so now i'm busying myself with planning my trip. i'm going to plan down to the very details: where we're going for our day 2 supper in London, which piece to see at Madam Tussauds. it's not like i'll follow my plan to the letter but it'll definitely help. ahh how i wish i can start my hospital attachment now! everyone at hospital attachment seems to be enjoying themselves watching operations, laser treatments, the works! sigh one more month!

oh yea and people who want souvenirs, tell me asap! haha and that's if u can find this blog in the first place. heh

ok next time!

maybe this is not a good idea...

now come to think of it, i don't feel secure writing and revealing ALL my innermost feelings online to a bunch of strangers. i don't know who's going to read this, nor will i feel comfortable knowing. so it's kind of a lose-lose situation. so why am i doing this? it makes no sense. sometimes, i feel like i should pen down my thoughts, just in case i burst if it just wells up inside of me and never comes out. but the security of my trove of thoughts, or rather the lack of it, scares me. it will definitely feel weird if i go to school, or walk along the road, and there are people who know how i feel inside, even if i don't show it. and this most frightening thing is: i have absolutely NO IDEA who these people are! i may be suspecting innocent people, or feeling safe among the people who KNOW. ahh...

maybe i'm babbling. maybe not. i don't know.

i guess some other people seem to think that writing what they feel online becomes a habitual activity because it helps to relive the load of keeping it all inside. but i then ask them, what about all the people who really care? you can just tell these people and it's enough. somebody i know started something public, but wants to keep it private. it's kind of conflicting, the whole aim. right? how can two opposing states exist simultaneously? i feel that contradiction is something phony, much like you're trying to hide behind a protection. someone once said something that goes somewhat like this: everyone hides behind masks, and they are competing with reality to see how much longer they can cope with it before it eventually implodes, crumbling everyting inside. to me, it's true.

well then. i have to see if i should continue this, or just start a real private diary. we'll see.

there is a tide in the affairs of men...
which, taken at the flood, leads on to fortune...
but omitted, and the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and miseries...
on such a full sea are we now afloat..
and we must take the current when it serves...
or lose the ventures before us

take chances guys. the message is to take chances before they are gone. gone in a flash even before you know it. don't wait too long considering; stuttering; failing.